"Dearest

I'm truly sorry for just now. I tend to be irrational for some time, but after that, I'l be fine and I would think rationally. I just need that space for that moment. I hope you would be able to understand the way I handle things.

I mean, its hard to be rational when you're just so emotional. That's why I would control my temper by not escalating anger or whatsoever. Only when I've calmed down then I would be able to think properly.

Meanwhile, you can be nicer to me or let me have my space for a moment or so. I would approach you when I'm better. Therefore, we won't argue further.

Still, I love you dear. "



Do you rmb this?

I never got to know when ure upset. I never get to be there for you when ure down. I never get to share your troubles, feelings thoughts and emotions.

You cut away your line of communication with me. You show me the happiness on the surface, sampai hati you keep important things from me.

You share them with your friends and not with me as well.

Because of this,we get distant and the relationship becomes superficial.

That explains why you're feeling this way towards me. You feel like im nobody to you now. Im just a figure on your side. Im pushed away from the loving care of your heart which I never get to feel anymore.

You don't even know how you feel towards me now.

If I was treated and respected as a bf, you could have shared everything with me. I am approachable, but sadly..ure scared to share it with me. I am sometimes supposed to observe your hints and actions before taking the initiative of asking you and showing care for you. Im afraid that channel closed on me as well..i nvr get to be there for you..

My voice..just a simple n nice feedback and it'll change and i've already done that during our last major phone call. rmb the time i called u up to talk abt hafiz n noraini thing? hmm.


My licences, my school, my traffic case, non-trustworthy friends, ive handled them all. A little less attention diverted off you in the course? Im sorry.. I felt that these might hinder the progress of our rship if left unsettled.

Open your eyes and see, school is completed, NS letter coming, i only mix with my usual grp of friends, my case dah lepas,my licences are around the corner, and im focusing entirely on you and hoping to get to spend our time together before our hectic schedule and commitment comes in.

Mama advised me, i can still be in a rship during me NS + Uni life, provided I manage my time well and limit my occurance of meetups with you and the duration of our calls and smses. It's purely based on trust,mutual understanding and yeah, feelings..., for each other..

Im never in favour of immature relationships like sec sch kids, in which we waste our time doing things that arent berfaedah and quarrel n fight over trivial matters ; in some cases, they get in and out of rships like nobody's business.

Everyone gets upset and irritated,even you and me. I didnt bother u with my issues this time,because I do not expect to be pujuk-ed, because i'm the guy. The boyfriend who needs to be strong for her girlfriend. Hence, the girl needs to open up to the guy,so he can help her and able to pujuk her.. but do you think..I was given that chance to do so?

And when ure upset and i keep quiet,doesnt mean i don't care or wanted to ignore you. Sometimes i was occupied with something and did not reply you and be there for you on time. Most of the times I was waiting for you to cool down before letting me have a chance to console you..

A couple accepts each other's past and flaws and never make them reasons for their breakup. Because, the past is the past,and the best thing to do is to remember it and learn from those mistakes. By accepting each other's flaws,it completes both individuals and this makes them a loving couple..who are comfortable with each other..who never complains abt each other's flaws..

Breaking up is no small matter. If it's meant to be,it's meant to be, jodoh tak kemana. Yes, its all true and happens in real life, but its entirely inapplicable in our case.

Ive managed to improve myself and show changes in me and even put in the best of my efforts to improve our relationship.. ive thought of it all beforehand..

It sad to see and know that you didn't realise my efforts and recognise the changes ive done in myself..

I spend most of my life with you, every day,hour,minute and second is all spent thinking abt you, worrying abt the future, planning for us,always.

But it's all just an imagination now.

My happiness is ruined.

Ive got no one to hold on to.

The one whom i love the most is losing her grip on me and our relationship, in which we've gone through thick n thin together and accomplished many hurdles and obstacles.

29 months. 29.. to save or crumple..?


Lots of love,

Broken-heart.