simple life.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

You no longer feel the same towards me.

You don't contact me as often.

You love somebody else now.

You cherish everything about him.

You confide in him.

You miss him.

He fills up your life.

You talk about him most of the time.

He makes you happy.

While I don't.

No matter how hard I try, There's always something that will trigger us to bicker.

Your msn and facebook is always about him.

I've seen through you. No point keeping it from me just to make me feel better.

Or maybe you don't love me anymore...

I'm just...

..SCREWED beyond words.

I'm DEMORALISED, DEPRESSED and HURT from all that's happening around me. I shouldn't be telling you all this. I'll hurt you. I'll just let this blog of mine be my punching bag from now on.

I'm sorry for everything.

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

9:11 PM

Define, LOVE.

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

1:14 AM

My weird feelings.
Those signs.
Those actions.
Those words.

My heart's crushed again today.

So much for hoping.

I should have known.

All the while I thought we're back together again.

A no-strings attached relationship? At the rate we were going when we were 'together-once-again', we were no different from a full fledged couple.

If you really needed me in your life and you can't bear to see me go, and you can't help it seeing me hang out with another girl, you shouldn't have left me in the first place.

A no-strings attached relationship is no different from 'friends-who-like-each-other-but-can-hang-out-with-another' kind of friendship.

Until I realise,we're nothing but friends.

Friends we shall be then.

I've lost everything to move on.

Everything.

EVERYTHING!

You couldn't care for me because of your studies. I needed you at the lowest point of my life. All i wanted was someone who can take a moment of her life off to hear my out. I needed someone to talk to.
No one else helped. Not even you. I had to handle everything by myself.. Instead, by sharing my thoughts with you, i upsetted you and made you angry. Im sorry for everything. im sorry..

i won't bother you with my problems anymore. i promise. you cant afford to waste your time thinking abt me.

The time has come.

Muhamad Syafiq will still be your friend. Your friend who will always be there.

But FiqFiq will have to go. .He can't survive all these anymore.

His love stays no matter what.

He'll has given all his heart to you.

FiqFiq will miss you.

But you can still count on Muhamad Syafiq to lead you on in life.

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

10:32 PM

Just came back from an enjoyable night out with cousins. Thanks guys for hearing me out. You guys were there for me at the right moment (:

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

9:55 AM

Whenever I think about the love we had,
Whenever I think about the love we made,
I said that I'll be strong
I really thought that I'd move on
But I still find myself asking.

Do you still think about me?

Do you still care for me?

I never asked a lot from you. Just a simple gesture to show that you still care. Just a moment spent off your revisions to hear me out. Just that few minutes and a few messages will heal my heart.

Only then,when I'm better, I'll come back to give you what you need.

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

9:36 AM