simple life.

Saturday, February 28, 2009

What a day!

Went for soccer this morning at Serangoon Ctrl with my primary school friends. After that went home, knockout in bed and woke up for a jog. Jogged dangerously without my bandage on. Mine got dirty due to soccer. Disgusted to wear that again. Was resting on the park bench when I saw Liyana walking nearby. Met her and talked to her for quite a while. I don't know why but she found my MWG kinda cool..Haha jakon.. So I went home after that and went online to check my mails..

It wasnt my usual visit to Hougang Green Mall this evening. Went to get fresh supply of crepe bandages from Guardian to replace my dirty one,due to soccer this morning. It's raining everyday,so I'm thinking twice about washing my bandages. It started to pour when I was going down the escalator and exiting the mall. I heard a loud screech, a thud and a loud cry. I knew it came from the main road,so I went out to have a look. A small girl was lying motionless on the road,crying in pain. She was hit by a car.

Together with the people from the nearby coffeeshop and other bystanders, I went for her aid. The driver of the car called for the ambulance and I advised him not to move his car at all, even though it's obstructing traffic, for police investigation. A young passer-by also came upfront, helped to divert traffic and got some people to help shelter the girl with umbrellas but at the same time not to crowd around her. She was still concious,but her neck was stiff, her left leg bled, and her left hand slightly broke. It was really heartening to hear her cries for her mom.. Borrowed a lighter and split my 4m bandage into 2. Passed one piece to an uncle and he wrapped it around her bleeding left leg. I ran out to the grass area to search for a straight twig around 30cm and carefully positioned it alongside the girl's arm trying hard not to move it too much,and wrapped it with the other piece of bandage. We then continued comforting the small girl and waited for the ambulance.

The big van with red and white blinkers arrived. QX 181 H. The same one that brought me to changi general hospital last september. I still recognise the paramedics! We passed the job to the paramedics and they brought her to KK hospital for treatment. The girl's parents came, picked up her slippers from the road and followed in one of the bystander's car to the hospital.

The nearby onlookers dismissed themselves and those who had helped went for shelter. I declined to give statement pertaining to the accident because I didnt see it totally with my own eyes. I excused myself,went back to Guardian and bought 2 packs of crepe bandages this time.

I went home,feeling proud of myself. Things that I learn during NPCC, finally being put to use. I hope that the girl will recover soon. She still has a longer way to go in life, at the same time,learning a painful lesson of road safety.

Everyone,please treasure your lives as much as you can. I would like to advise all of you
NOT TO JAYWALK unnecessarily even if you feel confident. An accident is bound to happen. Always use the traffic light or overhead bridge. They're there for a purpose. Please think of your loved ones at all times.

With that, what a day I had today. I've another match tomorrow at Pei Hwa Sec. Once the rain subsides, I might be going down for a cool jog.

I'm beginning to jelak drinking just 100 plus everyday.

Take care everyone.
Loves,
FiqFiq

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

8:45 PM

Time for a major change in life..

..and i'm very sleepy now..

Cousin's wrx rocks big time. Insyallah, I'll have my own one soon. But the Civic has to come first,to serve me for the time being. July,yea?

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

10:41 PM

Basic survival #1; Learn to wear your armsling in 5 minutes

Basic survival #2: Camwhore with your sling

Gosh. What a time to act cute huh.

I'm 76 now. Mom's jealous. I'm the lightest in the family =/

Nothing is what it seems..

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

7:05 PM

Oh I had a lot to say
was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same

Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me want to die

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue,
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds,
and baby the way you make my world go round

And I just wanted to say I'm sorry..

This time I think I'm to blame
it's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried it's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah i'm sorry...

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

1:10 PM

I'm missing you as every second passes by..

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

8:18 AM

I would like to thank the Lostmorons and my BME classmates for the motivation you ppl gave me. I totally value your kind words. Thank God that everything's fine now. Well, not everything..And my gang too, but sadly, tml's outing has to be cancelled. Because, I fractured my arm. AGAIN. At the same spot. Old injury lah. Story goes, was on the way home, and it rained heavily, but I had no mood to go back Aloha. So got home,changed and cycled in the rain! Well I sound stupid but at least it eases out some pain in me.. Cycled the usual Buangkok-Punggol route two times before ending up at Punggol Park. That's where it happened. Was negotiating a downhill,took a sharp corner and ended up on the grass, went over a tree root and my front wheel slipped on the wet metal drain cover. The next thing I knew,I was kissing earth. I knew what was coming when I could feel intense pain on that same spot near my right wrist. My torso hit my gear shifters,and left a mark on my chest. My precious MWG got scratched too. My Nokia's battery also had to die out on me,just after making that emergency call to Hafiz.

So,right now i'm typing with my left hand. Spent quite some time at the hospital just now. Was practically screaming in pain when the doctor examined my arm. Kental.. Thanks a lot Bruce for coming over to help push my bike home... Daphne is now disfigured. Her gears are out of alignment, her brake lever cracked, and her rear brake cable snapped. Not to mention my faulty rear light and scratched helmet. Im sorry uncle for not taking care of your things well. My head hurt a little bit. At least the helmet did its job.

Well..all I have to do is to resent to fate.. As I pull myself slowly back up, I'm glad that one by one, the people around me are giving their support. I really appreciate that. Really.

Only time will tell whether that fire burning in your candle of love will rekindle just for me.. I'll be patiently waiting for you..

I miss you a lot..

Yours truly,
Loveless

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

12:33 AM

My life is ruined. I can't pick myself back up anymore. I'm staying low from today onwards. I am no longer that confident person you all once knew. I've decided to withdraw myself from the things I love to do. I'm tired of living like this. Life is losing its meaning as every second passes by. Haters, happy now? You guys must be exuberant. Now,leave me alone and don't disturb me anymore..

Police assessment at New Phoenix Park was alright. It was kinda brief. We reported at the guard house and exchanged passes. Made friends with some of them there. Nice people. We filled in a blue folder filled with a lot of forms. Then I attached my photocopied documents and stapled my IC photo onto the main form. I was given a choice between PCG,K9,TP or General Policing. I chose TP. After that,changed into PT kit and did a marching exercise and they checked us for tattoos too.

We then proceeded for break. MY group went to Old Chang Kee TAKE 5 for lunch. Didnt eat cos I had a bad feeling ytd. Not gonna explain further.

Went back into police hq and went for medical exercise and psychometric test. Then, the first interview. 2 officers were assigned to one interviewee. I answered their questions promtly and tried hard not to stammer or make any mistakes. I opted for the December intake. as I wld still be schooling in June,so I wldnt be able to make it to the june intake. They will schedule me for a final interview around May or June. Wish me luck guys.

Let's move on..

As much as I miss my GF, I miss this group of people as well. I miss my gang loads. Guys, please get together soon,alright?

Wani.Zuli,Atikah,Hazwan,Mubarak,Bruce,Siswand,Hafiz,Asri,Wahyudin. All of you. I yearn for those moments we all spent time together. This time with you around too. Those times were great,last time. Right,guys?

How can I forget my brothers Najib,Hareen Steven and the rest of the LostMorons! You guys brought back the kid in me. You guys gave me strength to pull through this punishment I am going through right now.

My classmates too. Altho sometimes you ppl are a pain in the butt, I still enjoy your company. We spent many great moments together in poly. I would like to thank all of you for helping me throughout my poly life and gave me the motivation for me to be what i am now, wake me up from my ideas and always there to support in my major diet plan in year too. Those times we had huge conflicts and quarrels, those times were cute. Im sure we don't hold grudges against one another anymore. We're still the BE0601 we were last time.

How can I ever forget ZiezDiFiQah..

Fun grp of ppl. Always there for one another in times of need. Always there for one another to celebrate each other's birthday. I thank every single one of you for the wonderful birthday present and birthday card you guys did for me.

My family..

Altho I've done so many mistakes in life,they're forever there for me. Mom nags at me cos she loves me and she cares for me. I appreciate that. Dad's always been supporting me cos he knows I'm the one kind of person who will only change if being told off nicely. Nagging doesnt help..really..

My team..

Dear Wolves, I apologise greatly for being absent for some of your trainings. U guys have always supported me and are never tired of amending my weaknesses..thanks a lot bros..eventho I display my anger on the field, u guys still stay calm and comfort me...thanks guys..esp Jack, for understanding my situation all the time..

Last but not least;

Miss GF. Times are hard,dear. We need to stay together no matter what. We'll overcome all of this together,shall we? Always remember this phrase I once said to you:

"The treasure at the end of the rainbow is near. But we have to endure the storm first"

..and I want to endure that storm with you...

I need you ppl right now. I need all your company. I don't want to wake up every morning and realise that I have only myself to care for. Myself to live for. Myself to worry for. The gang should be back together again. Good times should last forever.

P.S: I don't expect any sympathy..i deserve all this. it's all my fault,guys. Deep down, I'm sorry to all of you..

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

11:23 AM

Time to share is always there

I peered thru life
Ever avoiding strife
But now am undone
My barriers broken
For one has found me

Reached in and unbound me

Her love has burst my bonds
And set music to my songs
Her need for me
And mine for she
Has made our lives complete

A new start
With hammering heart
We color the world with our dream
Nothing is as it did seem
The darkness of my solitude is done
She - Nur Syafiqah,is the One.

Stay strong,syg. I'll always be there for you. Make a wise decision. For the sake of us. Happy advance 1st year 1st week. ily.

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

10:42 AM

Ya Allah, ampunilah semua dosa-dosa ku Ya,Allah.
Aku tidak bisa tanggung smua ini,Ya Allah,
Aku perlu kekuatan untuk menghadapi cabaran hidupMu, Ya Allah,
Aku tidak bisa menghadapi smua ini sendiri, Ya Allah.

Berilah aku kekuatan, berilah aku keimanan,
Aku janji kepadaMu, aku akan berubah menjadi insan yg lebih mulia.
Demi untuk cita-cita2 dan masa depanku, aku mintak ampun denganMu,
Segala dosa2 yang aku lakukan, Kamulah yang Maha Pengasih dan Pengampun.

Amin Ya' Rabal Alamin...

Dear,at this point of time we really do need each other. We each make mistakes, we tell each other, we change and we move on. I just can't lose you just like that. We need to stay together and face the challenges life has to offer us..

Words can never explain how much I love you right now.

Let my tears witness the creation of this entry just for you,syg..

I don't want to lose you...

I hope you're able to make a good decision, for the sake of our future...

Lots of love,
Fiq

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

9:57 PM

I'm going through a lot of shit in life right now. I have an important interview tomorrow and all I ever wanted is a word of encouragement from my loved ones. Is it hard to do it?

The outgoing and optimistic person you all once knew is about to change.

I'm unable to give advice,im unable to comfort those in need,im unable to make ppl arnd me happy. I always end up hurting them and making them angry.

I'd rather be the one who's hurt,so that I can see them happy all over again.

Can we just quarrel less? For the sake of our future? I'm really having a bad day today.. Hell,i needed you. I spent my whole afternoon in my room,as it rains. But it's okay. If i disturb u with my problems,i'll tend to hurt u again.

8 hours more.

But I cant sleep.

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

12:31 AM

Sometimes I just wonder why I exist. God is putting me through a lot of tests now. Living in a world of lies,deceit,false allegations and all other unimaginable things. In the past,we have people going on strikes over the smallest issue. Well,at least they go out and exhibit their anger. Now, we have people wearing pyjamas,drinking ribena and logging on to forums and display their intellectual nonsense all over the net.

One such incident is our good 'ol buddy Chan Honyian. He's the smartest guy ever lived. Some goon used my name and contact to tag at his blog, he's smart enough to think its me, and posted the offensive tags at an online forum. Thanks for making me popular,man. I owe you a happy meal. I'll even topup your ribena tumbler everyday before you go to school,okay?

I mean,come on lah. Who would be so dumb enough to use his own identity for this kinda stuff? So what if I happen to be using the same service provider as the tagger? Well,all I know is,i have more than enough support behind me. This is getting more and more interesting. Let me just end this post with a quote ;

"You can shoot me with bullets, but don't cry mother cry father when I drop the bomb at the end".

So long, motherfathers.

1 more day to the interview! Nervous nervous!

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

5:44 PM

My blog is now as infamous as Xiaxue. I have a fan forum too. Chan Honyian,if your plan is ever gonna backfire,there's no turning back,dude. I tried many ways to settle things peacefully with you. And you had to give me this. I'm washing my hands off this. You suspect people of stealing your cash. But you openly did not return me the cash for the cyclometer I sold you. You didnt return me the fishing kit I lent to you. What do you have to say for yourself?

Showering me with threats with the police aint gonna shake me at all. Report lah. If it wasnt me who tagged,u answer it urself.

Go read all my archives if you can find any racist remarks here.

It's a win-win situation. If the tags WERE by me, I wouldn't get into trouble. The person who was racist against malays will get it. It's something called SELF defence.It they WEREN'T,then I just sit back and enjoy the rest of the SHOW.

Let the police read this,if they want.

Grow up,ppl.

2 days more! Hopefully I pass the interview. Final lap!

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

12:56 AM

My life can't be any happier.

I can't wait for the 23rd! My Singapore Police Force Assesment at POLICE HQ/Home Team Career Centre at Irrawady Road at 0830 hours. Received the SMS from SPF to attend this full day event.

Attire: Smart Casual

Things to bring: Pen, IC-sized photo, a pair of shorts and t-shirt, photocopied documents of : NRICx2, birth cert, all education certs, NS enlistment letter and all relevant documents.

I am one step closer to my dream.

"If you see BLUE blinkers at your rear view mirror,from a white yamaha or wrx. Be VERY afraid"

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

11:38 PM

It's finally 18-02-2009.

Our 1st year anniversary.

Picture taken on 18 Feb 2008,at Punggol End. Posed with the Mitsubishi Lancer that got two different souls together. It was the happiest day of my life. Finally got to meet the love of my life in person, after a few days of intro. We had a long chat on the phone on 17th Feb 08,while I was busy multi-tasking,preparing for my math paper the next day. Math ended at 5.30pm,and met her at Ang Mo Kio mrt. Fetched her from there and went to LOT1 via SLE thru-serangoon-hougangs-yio chu kang-sengkang. Hehehe. Purposely took the longest route so that I could spend more time in the car with her. Naturally a shy person,I tried hard not to stammer while talking to her.

We reached LOT1 and walked around aimlessly. Our initial plan was to meetup and have an ice cream date. So we went to McD,ordered McFlurry and sat at the back of LOT1, stargazing. Had a nice talk with her,till she had to go home. Walked back to the carpark. Held her hands along the way,and sparks flew. Drove her home,sent her up and took our first photo together..

It was the most memorable day of my life. Love takes a while to happen, a little more time to blossom,and an entire lifetime to last. For me,true love means falling in love with your dearest everyday,without fail. Altho we quarreled, argued, merajok-ed with each other,i'm glad we're able to pull through and are able to make it this far. I'll continously pray that every passing day will be a better day for the both of us. Insyallah,we'll not stop at 1. Insyallah we'll last till eternity.

I LOVE YOU, IQAH.

Happy 1st year to us,from the bottom of my heart...

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

1:14 AM

HAPPY LEGAL 18TH TO DEAREST IQAH!

Dear's surprise birthday was a huge success! This lady of mine here turned 18 on 16 February 2009. In case you readers were wondering,I did not go to KL. Hehehe. 'Bad news for' my sayang,sehh!. It's a prank. Just to surprise her, That two weeks was torture for me,seriously. She got super upset with me over the issue,but Alhamdulilah,somehow I managed to get her to cope with the 'fact' and settle down.
The people behind the wonderful surprise : My Godsis(Vani), WANEHH! (Syazwani), Faiezah, Azimah, and all the other classmates who were present at KFC on 16th Feb.

The plan on that day was simple. Me drove around the whole of Singapore trying to find that special cake for her. Combed down Hougang,Kovan,Serangoon Central,Clementi,Bukit Panjang and lastly, Jurong. She LOVES pink. She LOVES hearts. And she LOVES chocolates. So I got her a pink heart shaped cake with chocolate filling. Hehehe. It was abit 'basket',cos I couldn't wait to see how she's gonna cut a heart shaped cake into ten slices. Faiezah had delayed class,so she couldn't make it on time. Was in contact with Vani the whole time,to make sure dear was in the right mood for the bombshell. Ordered the cake at a bakery near to JJC,then drove over to a nearby carpark for a short nap.

Vani signalled that the whole class was leaving school towards KFC,so I called Azimah whether she's ready to follow me. She arrived with 2 other classmates. Sent one of them home at Jurong East first cos she wasn't feeling well. Zimah and her friend followed me to collect the cake and rush down to KFC at JP. Parked the car,unwrapped the cake,and walked around Jurong Point with the cake on my bare hands,as though I was about to masuk meminang (get engaged). Hehehe. Stopped in front of KFC,smsed Vani to cover dear's eyes.

Vani gave the green light and I walked in with the cake,presented it on the table in front of dear, she looked up and saw me, I gave her the most innocent smile I could ever give! She was so touched,she teared but still was able to smack me (hehehe) for lying to her. The whole class then proceeded to sing her a birthday song. Did the usual cut-cake-make-wish thing and everyone got their slice of the cake. The class had to go for extra lessons,so dear accompanied me have my lunch in the same KFC. It was 2.30pm. We realise that it was still early,we decided to go rounding in my car. Drove slowly to Parkway Parade to look for her mom's birthday gift (both mom and daughter share the same birthday) and bought other stuff from Bukit Panjang Plaza. Sent her home after that and went back early that day. Didn't know what else to do that day uh =/

Syg,i hope u love your 18th and that Bonia purse. I love you.

Lots of love,
Mr BF.

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

12:33 AM

she doesn't miss me...

life's just great.

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

12:40 AM

Mom made the WORST decision a mom has ever made. If it's MY life, freaking LET ME set my own path in life and do whatever I want. All my hopes and dreams are gone.

GONE,gettit?!?!

Why do I need to study?

Why do I need to care about my future if she's the one setting it?

Why do I need to bother wasting my time trying to impress her with every single thing I do so that I can have the freedom to set something for my future?

I cant help but breakdown at the very moment those words came out.

I just had this undescribable bad feeling.

I'm running out of patience. I dont want my old self to come back. I hate the old me.

I can't go with a peace of mind. GF's stressed out at the other side of the island. How i wish i could help her out. I hope that she'll be able to pull through and have enough strength and patience ot overcome these obstacles.

No one cares now. Even dad's turning a deaf ear. Im sorry to all that i've hurt. Let me suffer alone.

The other end of the rainbow is drawing near,my dear. Trust me. The treasure's just for you.

"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"

10:47 PM