God loves me.He loves me that much.He has given me a lot of tests and I'm struggling hard to pass them all.But I just can't handle all of them at one go.This has gotta be the point in my life where I should move one step further.To be more confident and to be nearer to Him.

I think that i'm not a good boyfriend.I guess i've not put in a lot of effort into this relationship.I love her a lot and I don't want to lose her.Maybe I should improve myself on this.

Insyallah,i'll be able to pull through and pass all these tests..all I need is some support and everything should be alright..i guess.

To those who just can't wait to attack me at this state,go ahead. So what if im weak, pathetic,useless and all the shit u wanna call me? I know and God knows it's all untrue. Go ahead and satisfy your inner desires.Once u're done,get the hell outta my life.If that's gonna make you feel better.

And I just can't hold back my tears at this moment.

All I want is for my life to resume as usual.I know I can do it.

Down and disappointed,
Fiq.

11:15 PM