First and foremost,I would like to thank all my FYP people for making my day every day. Life sucked back then. Too many class politics. We have people who forget their roots, we have people who enjoy the thrill of isolating others,and we also have people who backstab each other. Well, God is creative. He creates a lot of types of people. When there are good ones,there must be bad ones to level it up. It's up to us to put in an effort to belong to the correct side.
Life's simple. Make choices.Don't look back.
To KC,I would appreciate it if you would be more accurate in judging other people in the future. Listening to rumours and stories about me and spreading those lies is not doing good to me, our friends and yourself. Think of what others will think of you by saying all that about me. What's past is past,be it true or not. But ppl won't like it if you warn Charlene about me. She's old enough to judge her new friends and three weeks is more than enough to give her a rough idea of what kind of person I am.
Do I look like a backstabber to you?
Apparantly, I don't. So my advice to you is,stay away if you don't like. If you have anything against me,say it to my face.
To Ida,what happened has happened. It's all a misunderstanding. I'm sorry for being crude in the email,but I hope you understand how pissed I was when you said those words to your mom about me. I was having a hard time during my project phase when I heard the news. I'm not asking for any thank you or gratitude or anything. I just want all my friends to do well in studies and nip their mistakes from the bud. I tried any way possible to settle your issue before it got worse,and Alhamdulilah it all went well. You're back on track and making signs of improvement. Even Ng Chin Tiong praised you. I can tell how happy your bibik is for you.
So, learn from your mistakes and move on in life. It's okay to make new mistakes,but never repeat the old ones. I'm glad you've realised them,and the next step is to prove it.
Generally,I love my life now. I thank God for giving me the patience and opportunity to improve myself and be somebody everybody likes to be with. People make mistakes,people change. It's up to the others whether to adapt to the changes,or stick to their old judgements.
With this, I shall remain strong for the sake of my future. No more upsets and no more being down. Time to move on. Forget the old me.
With regards,
-FiqFiq-
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
12:56 AM
BiometricWent to collect my new passport at ICA building yesterday morning with dad. My queue number was 2615 and the current service is 2330. Dad suggested breakfast at Kandahar Street. We both rode over with our full tanks but empty stomachs. We ate steamed rice with bbq chicken,potato cutlet,chilli eggs,shrimp paste eggplant and rendang at Pariamman. I was speechless after the meal. Dad sent me back to ICA building and the queue shot up to 2512. He had to go off to work and i collected the passport alone. Nth special about the new one lah,just that the first page is as hard as a card and my fingerprint data is stored into it. Okay,wow. Haha.
Enjoy giggling at my cute photo when I was young.
Till then.
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
12:34 AM
My dad's pride. I've been bugging him to upgrade to a Super 4. But he likes RXZ and doesnt wanna let go his RXK. Solution? Get RXZ parts on the RXK!
Parts upgraded/changed:
-Fully overhauled engine
-RXZ head with xenon bulb
-RXZ carbeurator
-RXZ rear fender
-RXZ tail lamp
-Brand new RXK tank cover
-Brand new RXK engine oil cover
-Engine over-bored to 150cc (previously 135)
-RK-M gold chain
-TZM Fast throttle
-GIVI box
-Showa Rear Shocks(Super 4)
-GPR Grips
- 125Z disc brakes
- RXZ OEM Forks
He's one happy man now.
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
12:22 AM
Down with the sickness. Down down. Everything's going down. But FYP makes my day every day. And so do you.
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
9:45 PM
Sometimes some people get me wrongwhen it's something I've said or doneSometimes you feel there is no fun,
that's why you turn and runBut now I truly realise,
some people don't wanna compromise
Well, I saw them with my own eyes
spreading those lies, and
Well I don't wanna live my life,too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights,I'm sorry to say lady
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking awayWell, I'm so tired baby
Things you say, you're driving me away
Whispers in the powder room baby,
don't listen to the games they play
Girl I thought you'd realise,
I'm not like them other guys
Cos I saw them with my own eyes,
you should've been more wise and
Well I don't wanna live my life,too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights,I'm sorry to say lady
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better dayI'm walking away
If I have to life a life like this everyday, I might as well go..
Somewhere far far away..
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
12:02 PM
The EFF-WHY-PEE gang outings
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
1:18 AM
I've never enjoyed school till this fun before. Every day is filled with fun and laughter from my FYP gang. Hahaha. We've been going out for the past few days,pics will be uploaded soon aites?
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
1:05 AM
Didn't have a good feeling just now. My headache kicked up again. Car couldn't start for no apparent reason. Was stuck at Bangkit carpark for a while. Managed to fire it up in the end and took a solitary drive around. Well I shan't say much here,but hell the swift is screwed. I'm sorry Tino for crashing your front bumper. I didn't realise the tyres were already bald and caused the 50m skid on the main road.
Too bad I didn't die.
It's much better than living without your love
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
12:02 AM
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
2:46 AM
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
3:03 PM
2nd day into FYP. Did the initial research and background information needed to start me off full-scale. Gonna be very very busy for the next few weeks. First presentation in 5 weeks time. Gotta do my best. Gym and swim session with the fyp ppl gereks ah. Hahahaha. Love you people. Stay happy always,yea?
Remember my Project Tom Cruise 2 years ago? Now for my 2nd one:
Ady's face with Aaron's body in a black Honda by August. Insyallah.
Well,nothing's impossible. Gotta thank my mom in advance for that Honda,though.
I
t's incomplete without you,dear. I'll keep praying for your return (:
But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
3:03 PM
I can't explain what i'm feeling now..
I was just paranoid just now. Sorry for freaking u out today. I can manage it on my own (:
Be strong,be patient,always be there for her, u guys will get back together someday. Insyallah.
That was taken on 18 Feb 2008. The happiest day of our lives. I'll never forget that day,and I am sure that day will come again. Iqah,stay strong always,focus on ur studies and never give up. I'll always stand by you.
You're my
first,you're my
last and you're my
best. I LOVE YOU.
..there's lots more to say,but its better kept as drafts..sorry but i can't publish them..nights readers..
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
9:25 PM
My irritating-mak-nenek-sister, Diana.
First day of FYP,brought a camera along to take photos of my project. In the end....
*teet teet teet* battery flat. GAAAAAAAA $ % ^ & * ! @ # $ % & !!!!!!!!!!
and the FYP people will be training together for NAPFA, cool or what? Everyday bring PT kit, guys! Let's RUN!
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
8:07 PM
REUNITED @ Mubarak's 20thThe Musibats met up at Hougang and set off to Pasir Ris hoping for a Swensens outlet. Fortunately,we found one and went in cos Babz was really2 hungry. His treat,so we ordered what we wanted. I had fish n chips,he had mega burger and Bruce had bbq chicken. The girls and Asri came soon after to have dessert and ice mocha.
Bruce had to go off,so the rest of us went around Downtown East but couldn't go bowling due to the long waiting list. We felt very full and got tired easily walking around. Decided to go home instead.
Thanks Babz for the big treat. Insyallah we'll have MORE MORE MORE MORE of this kinda treats from you lah eh. Hahahahaha.
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
7:57 PM
Woke up with a bleeding nose today. And I have no appetite to eat. 0.7 degress down for that soccer match later. I hope i'll recover fast enough. Aiyo.
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
9:11 AM
Everyone's feeling down nowadays.
Economy's down.
The internet's unstable.
Singtel reception's down.
Even the weather's down.
But we all need to keep our spirits high and be confident in going through this tough time in our lives. Ignore those who have been disturbing your lives all along. Move on, move along and stay focusd on your goals.
Most importantly,treasure your loved ones and it's never too late to tell them, I love you.
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
1:20 PM
Just came back from the urgent trip. We rushed everything and we cousins decided to chiong home. We only had time for meals and 10 mins of 'shopping'. I was upset lah for not being able to find any shop that can top up my malaysian sim card. I managed to get something for Iqah too (: Cant wait to pass it to her.
Sorry for making u worried today,dear. I didn't know anything about a subaru crash on the highway,as mentioned by Steven.
Keeping yourself awake while driving on a dangerous highway is a real tough challenge. We reached KL at 7am in the morning due to traffic jams at customs and countless stopovers for hot drinks to keep ourselves awake. I didn't eat,cos supper will make me sleepy. Due to that,ate a lot in the morning. The roti canai at the warong was so tempting, I had 3 pieces, one with egg!
Wanted to look around for telecom shops at Chow Kit Road but it was still too early in the morning. Had a terrible stomachache after breakfast (masuk angin and also the milk in the tea). We slacked at Dataran Merdeka and met up with the rest of the cars at Sultan Abdul Saman building. A total of 4 cars, we waited for our Malaysian relatives to come and fetch us to Putra Jaya for the signing of the transfer of land ownership documents.
It was a long gruelling wait for them to chit chat and talk non-stop in the offices. I gave up and drove Najib's wrx around to find that handphone shop, and the only one in that area closed for the day. BAIK UH! Everyone was waiting for me when I came back and we all went for lunch at A&W Jalan Ampang. The root beer float was sinful! I only ate onion rings and not the main course to make up for that. I don't want to gain weight again.
It was 4pm and the family decided to go shopping. I was too tired to walk around. My head was spinning and I took some panadol before knocking out in the car. Cousins decided to go off first and drive slowly back cos Najib wanted to get dvds from City Square at JB, So I agreed to follow them and slept in the car all the way back. Skipped dinner and continued sleeping in the car.
Was rudely awakened when our car hit a stretch of road full with potholes. Couldn't sleep well cos the wrx had stiff suspension setting. Reached JB at 10 plus i think. Once we entered customs, I turned on my phone and prayed for it to detect my singtel reception. Messaged dear right after that and cousins sent me home. Reached home at 11.50pm.
I am dead tired now. I need more sleep. Nites everyone!
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
12:14 AM
Dear diary,
I had a good solitary time at the park yesterday. Was deep in thought for a lot of things. Life's getting much better nowadays. I do have a lot of friends who are there for me when I'm down. Thanks ppl,for the motivation you've given me. It feels really nice to be given confidence once in a while, whereas in the past, I was the one giving it out to others. But my soul is still incomplete. But life has to go on. Be confident,Fiq. You'll pull through..
This is for real. I'll be going Kulai, and then KL. Last minute case. Why does it have to be now? I have 3 more paid gym sessions to attend! There goes my chance to workout. Going there to settle some land ownership issue. Family didn't have enough drivers. So i'll be taking up the job after we cross the causeway.
I'm having a real bad feeling about all this. That same bad feeling.
I heard that driving at night on the North-South Highway is dangerous and I don't have enough experience to face the Malaysian highways at night. I'll be driving with my 2 cousins. The wrx better not break down again ah i tell u guys. I've had enough of that under-serviced car. I don't know when I'll be coming back,though. We're departing at 8.30pm tonight. So long,people. Take care of yourselves.
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
4:15 PM
Was digging through old photos and found this. It's rare to see me in shades. Dear can testify that. I just don't feel right wearing them. Hahaha.
Anw,we'll be taking a breather for the time being. We're pressing that PAUSE button. She needs to tackle her As and I want the best for her. Yeap,no more playing around. Time for serious business.
all the best for you,syg..Meanwhile I'll concentrate on my project makeover (zahir dan batin); which will be disclosed later on in my next few entries.
I have to wake up super early tomorrow for my medical checkup. Aiyo. My eyes are dying out on me.
Till then,
FiqFiq
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
12:22 AM
What a wet game today. It started to rain heavily at half time. Ramesh put me in as striker to replace Wen Jie in the second half. Missed a totally golden chance to score that goal for the win. Their right back brought me down. My arm hurt badly after that rough tackle. It doesnt matter, cos I love soccer (: We ended the match at 1-1. Paid for the match and referee,and cycled home in the heavy rain. I was super cold,I went to a nearby bridge for shelter. Messaged Iqah and then made my way home after the rain subsided. Next week we're gonna play against the same opponents again, so I better pull up my socks and train on my stamina.
75.5kg now. I'm gona get low low low low low low low low...
Igniting Old Passion
In my years of blogging, does everyone know what my ECA was back in primary school? I had 3: Badminton Club, English Club and ..... Club. I wanted to join that same ..... CCA in secondary school, but due to intense pressure from family, mom psychoed me to join NPCC. NPCC was a good thing in the end, cos I learnt a lot of character building, discipline and other valuable skills and knowledge. I have no more exam modules in NYP now. Only left with FYP and Industrial Attachment, i have lots of free time and i've decided to look back into my roots and do what I loved the most, all over again. Let's keep the suspense here,aites?
It's been 8 years since. I miss those times.
Don't be shocked,ppl. Hehe.
"Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi"
7:07 PM