My life is ruined. I can't pick myself back up anymore. I'm staying low from today onwards. I am no longer that confident person you all once knew. I've decided to withdraw myself from the things I love to do. I'm tired of living like this. Life is losing its meaning as every second passes by. Haters, happy now? You guys must be exuberant. Now,leave me alone and don't disturb me anymore..


Police assessment at New Phoenix Park was alright. It was kinda brief. We reported at the guard house and exchanged passes. Made friends with some of them there. Nice people. We filled in a blue folder filled with a lot of forms. Then I attached my photocopied documents and stapled my IC photo onto the main form. I was given a choice between PCG,K9,TP or General Policing. I chose TP. After that,changed into PT kit and did a marching exercise and they checked us for tattoos too.

We then proceeded for break. MY group went to Old Chang Kee TAKE 5 for lunch. Didnt eat cos I had a bad feeling ytd. Not gonna explain further.

Went back into police hq and went for medical exercise and psychometric test. Then, the first interview. 2 officers were assigned to one interviewee. I answered their questions promtly and tried hard not to stammer or make any mistakes. I opted for the December intake. as I wld still be schooling in June,so I wldnt be able to make it to the june intake. They will schedule me for a final interview around May or June. Wish me luck guys.


Let's move on..


As much as I miss my GF, I miss this group of people as well. I miss my gang loads. Guys, please get together soon,alright?

Wani.Zuli,Atikah,Hazwan,Mubarak,Bruce,Siswand,Hafiz,Asri,Wahyudin. All of you. I yearn for those moments we all spent time together. This time with you around too. Those times were great,last time. Right,guys?

How can I forget my brothers Najib,Hareen Steven and the rest of the LostMorons! You guys brought back the kid in me. You guys gave me strength to pull through this punishment I am going through right now.

My classmates too. Altho sometimes you ppl are a pain in the butt, I still enjoy your company. We spent many great moments together in poly. I would like to thank all of you for helping me throughout my poly life and gave me the motivation for me to be what i am now, wake me up from my ideas and always there to support in my major diet plan in year too. Those times we had huge conflicts and quarrels, those times were cute. Im sure we don't hold grudges against one another anymore. We're still the BE0601 we were last time.

How can I ever forget ZiezDiFiQah..

Fun grp of ppl. Always there for one another in times of need. Always there for one another to celebrate each other's birthday. I thank every single one of you for the wonderful birthday present and birthday card you guys did for me.


My family..


Altho I've done so many mistakes in life,they're forever there for me. Mom nags at me cos she loves me and she cares for me. I appreciate that. Dad's always been supporting me cos he knows I'm the one kind of person who will only change if being told off nicely. Nagging doesnt help..really..


My team..

Dear Wolves, I apologise greatly for being absent for some of your trainings. U guys have always supported me and are never tired of amending my weaknesses..thanks a lot bros..eventho I display my anger on the field, u guys still stay calm and comfort me...thanks guys..esp Jack, for understanding my situation all the time..

Last but not least;

Miss GF. Times are hard,dear. We need to stay together no matter what. We'll overcome all of this together,shall we? Always remember this phrase I once said to you:


"The treasure at the end of the rainbow is near. But we have to endure the storm first"


..and I want to endure that storm with you...


I need you ppl right now. I need all your company. I don't want to wake up every morning and realise that I have only myself to care for. Myself to live for. Myself to worry for. The gang should be back together again. Good times should last forever.


P.S: I don't expect any sympathy..i deserve all this. it's all my fault,guys. Deep down, I'm sorry to all of you..