What I am going to post next is going to be my most emotional entry ever.

Today, I managed to do an extensive soul searching. I finally realise...how many things I have done wrong in the past, how many people I have hurt, how my parents love me yet I'm sometimes rude to them. Tonite, Allah made me realise the true meaning of life. My only problem is... I focus too much in this world. I endulge in this worldly desires like the internet, games, handphones... but...come to think of it... all those things are nothing compared to how the pleasures of life will be in Heaven created by Allah S.A.W. Tonite, I realise that life is not just about enjoying, but...life is an examination...an examination by the Almighty... Whether u pass or fail in it, its either Heaven or Hell...So...to those who I have hurt their feelings... I am truly sorry... I apologise for all my wrong doings...I apologise for all my mistakes... I apologise for my undesirable attitude... I apologise to you guys... I have made an utmost decision...which is to correct myself... Make my life more meaningful... Make my parents proud of me...My parents...they brought me up...they raised me up... and I am scared... who shall I turn to when I am old..and they are not there for me...who shall I turn to when all I can have in the future is my own family... I am really scared of losing them... I am the only child.... the only son to them... yup...tears are welling up in my eys ryte nw... beginning to fall back to reality... I am scared... They are all I have in this world...I really love them very much...I hope tt one day.. I will be with them forever...I must wait for tt day... no matter what...

I am going to be a more matured person, a more caring person, and seek fulfillment in achieving my dreams. I am going to make my life more meaningful as ever... and I need you guys... ur support..to help me change to a better person...a new me... a new Syafiq... God bless you all...

Good night...

4:43 AM